Happy Friday to those of you who live relatively "normal" lives.. It is Monday for me.. and although I very much enjoy my 3 days off for weekends.. Next week.. will be sadly.. my last one for a while..
I decided that since all my classes start at 8 am.. yes AM.. the likes of which I haven't seen for moonages..be right back.. Buckeye needs out..ok.. my puppy love is happy now.. anyway....OK.. so I am going to change shifts with someone who is insane enough to want a 10 hour shift... My days off will be changing.. I hope I remember that..
I have such a boring life...Home Chicken is still testing my patience with not getting a job and staying high until she has to clean up to go see her parole officer.. they don't seem to give a rats ass if she does anything or not.. I found out.. I can't even tap my OWN phone.. cause it would violate HER civil rights.. WTF??
She has until Feb.1 to have a job.. then I suppose I will have to evict her.. that sucks..I hate it when people lie to me.. cause im such a jackass and believe them..She actually has had jobs that she could go get.. but.. has found something wrong with them all.. you know.. like.. ohh.. I'll have to stand too long.. or.. I want a job with benefits.. or.. I have to ride a bus to get there.. wait.. you don't OWN a car.. how the hell do you THINK you're gonna get there? And.. NO.. I am not going to be a taxi service.. I am still on restriction from helping people.. seems my week got extended...
Well damn.. I meant for this to be a happy uplifting friday post.. and all it seems like I did was bitch.. I do apologize for that.. although.. I feel better ::wink::
Thanks for listening.. now..who do I make the check out to for therapy?
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Hey! Sometimes you just gotta blow off a little steam.
I'm glad to see that you've set a deadline with the moocher. I know what you mean about believing people. I still get sucked into that trap on occasion. I think it's because I want so badly for them to have changed that I'll believe it until they prove me a jackass.
Anyway, stay strong and if you need someone to bitch at offline, feel free to email me.
Checks for therapy.....you mean you're paying me now? Wow...cause actually,dinner would have worked.
Well then.... let's do dinner..
"I hate it when people lie to me.. cause im such a jackass and believe them.."
You're not a jackass...you're an optimist who likes to believe in the best in people...and yeah...people like us get kicked in the face which sucks 'cause we're too nice to kick back...
This is home chicken and did bambamm forget to mention she bought my half of this 3 bedroom brick home for 10 dollars? Oh and bet she forgot to mention my health issues like i was paralyzed from waist down in 2002 and have nerve damage to legs and serious stomach problems which i am finally getting a colonoscopy that i have been waiting for since oct. And yes i have relapsed a few times and we all make mistakes. After all bam did use to be my drug dealer back in the days but yes she has recovered and started a new life. I am proud of her for that but we all can't be like bam now can we? I have been home since sept and all i ask was for everyone to please be patient until i can get these test for my swelling in stomach. well thank got feb 15th is the day. so either they find something or i have to deal with my health as is and try to find a job. Maybe if i had a little more support instead of someone wanting to tap the phones or call my parole officer and sister and tell them all kinds of shit about me. There are two sides to every story and yes i have made some mistakes and could be trying harder to get a job but don't everyone agree that to be a productive worker you have to be somewhat healthy. i am sick of her downplaying my health as an excuse not to work. i have worked almost all my life and would love to be able to wake up feel like a normal human being and go to work and have my own money be clean get everyone off my ass and get my half of this house that i have lived in for 42 years. all she is trying to do is set me up to fail now that i haven't did what she thinks i should do. Maybe if she spent 13 months in prison, had nerve damage to feet and legs and hep c she would see life isn't as easy as she seems to think it is. oh not to mention my felonys that show up on background checks or no public transportation. so now that i have explained my side of story maybe i don't seem like such a moocher. where else are u going to get a 3 brick bedroom house 2 car garage nice middle class neighborhood front and fenced backyard with patio for 23,010.00?? yeah some sorry ass moocher i am. She promised my mom she would be here for me and make sure i didn't lose this house and now she is the one trying to get me out of this house that we have lived in for 42 years. Some drug counselor she is going to be. you have to have compassion to be in that field. all i have done wrong is relapse and not get a job by her timeline. well so sorry for not being like you bam. maybe if i had some positive support instead of someone kicking me in my ass and calling parole officer i might not be so damned depressed. i will get a job after i get this test done. until then home chicken ain't going nowhere.
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