Much To Do About Nothing...

I have lots to to tomorrow.. the bright spot of my day.. is Lil Girl is finally coming home from her trip to Colorado.. I am picking her up at the (freakin) airport.. but I guess its ok.. cause I have to turn in my uniforms.. ID.. name tags.. and various assorted crap stuff like that..I wonder if they would notice right off the bat.. if i had "accidently" left some shrimp shells in one of the inside pockets of the coat? :::polishing my halo::; Not that I WOULD.. Im just sayin...

I love my dad.. he gave me a VERY VERY early birthday present.. He told me to go ahead and get the router table I have been dreaming about.. or maybe just wanting really bad... and he would spring for it..I spent yesterday and today reading japanese directions.. looking at diagrams.. scratchin my head..finally tossing that book and putting it together by the picture on the box..lol... Thanks Dad!!

I got some more wood cut.. routed.. and sanded today..Im gonna either cut some more tomorrow night after my errands are finished.. or stain the ones I have for the front window and finish that.. I like finishing parts now.. I am seeing it all come together.. and I like that...

Other than that I am sad.. way sad.. kicking myself in the ass sad... Tarzan couldn't even kick an elephants ass out of this sad... Even though there is nothing that proves I did anything wrong..I feel like I have let down a lot of people...mostly me... I just feel very alone and small right now...I'll find a lawyer and get that ball rolling...I need someone with a black heart to go after these bastages...I mean.. ya know.. someone that practices law.. not just me...

I guess a good thing has come out of this.. I have lost 13 pounds in a week.. yes I have been eating.. Guess I have been working my ass off trying not to think ... Or maybe anger, fear, and anxiety are calorie burners... hmmm... maybe I am on to something here...

Im off to bed.. the IRS office beckons me bright and early...