Do you ever stop to think about how anonymity on the internet lets people open up like they never would if it was in "in person" relationship? I have been guilty of doing just that.. thinking that the other person was genuine and real.. only come to find out. ehhh.. not so much..Don't get me wrong.. I have made some very special friends online.. and have met many in real life.. Been out of the country with some for a few days.. that was a hoot.. and one of the most memorable trips I have ever been on in my life.. Who cares that we were lost.. Hell.. we were lost in CANADA!! How cool it THAT???
Each person I have met takes a place in my heart. One very special person.. I have never "met".. in real life.. but our hearts have.. and our souls have..and she knows things about me.. that I would never tell a living soul.. Im sure I know things about her.. that are only for me...Growing in the friendship we have made.. through talks.. fights.. laughs.. tears.. silence.. and talking again.. has taught me so many things about life.. about people.. about her.. and about me.. They say that each person gives you gifts when they touch your heart.. not gifts of a tangible nature.. but gifts nonetheless..I believe that is true.. I believe I have been given the gift of being trusted.. and I have been given the gift of a life long friend..
I have been accused of seeing the world through rose colored glasses.. For the most part.. I tend to agree with that.. but it desn't stop me from knowing.. whats real.. people arent always angels.. they arent always nice.. and God knows.. they dont always act like you want them to! People are people.. they have their good sides.. and not so good sides.. you take the wheat with the chaff as my granny used to say..
The most important thing I have learned is this.. Watch your words.. however non important they might be to you at the time they are said.. they can have far reaching.. and life changing consequences.. They can't be taken back.. In class.. a couple semesters ago.. my teacher gave us the concept of the 6/6/6 rule.. and that is.. Don't share anything.. that you dont want repeated.. in 6 minutes.. 6 months.. or 6 years.. because someone who hears you say it.. will remember it.. There are some words I would like to take back.. but I can't.. and that sucks.. But i go on.. trying to learn from it.. trying to not make the same mistake twice.. I know.. SOME are too much fun to just make once.. but that one.. wasn't... I regret it more than words can say..
OK.. thats as much as yall get.. letting people peek into the affairs of my heart isn't so easy anymore..